Today, work is overwhelming.

I have complained too much for the slow progress of our project. Complaining is too exhausting.  I do not want to put negative vibes to my team, early this week, but frustrations should be vent out and expectations should be cleared out, too. And before actually expressing all the frustrations, I have to filter out as much subjective insinuations there are and be able to clarify where the frustrations are actually coming from.  Good thing there are considerate colleagues to rely on, and are willing to listen, lest I could have exploded in one negative blast of emotions. As frustrated as I am to some people, I do still want to know where we could be more objective in achieving goals and meeting deadlines. I feel pressured already that I have work to do and problems keep sprouting here and there, as if a wild wind blew all the seeds in my direction, and around me is a land fertile for  nourishing troubles.

Crocheting keeps me calm. It soothes my nerves (though not those around my fingers) and composes my restless mind. So amidst all the anxiety that work brings me, I find serenity in creating laces and textures.

I am not complaining about the work load. Believe me or not, I find comfort that I have work to do and problems to solve. I complain about the drag of certain loads, where some milestones seem to be far from being reached. It’s like a forever work-in-progress (wip) which could turned into un(wanted) finished objects (ufo). In my world, wip’s should have constant progress. Ufo’s are not even considered. Hence, if there are any obstacles that hinder us from moving forward, I feel that it is my responsibility to shake the grounds and drag my team mates out of their comfort zones, literally drag them out and tell them directly

THIS IS NOT RIGHT. THIS IS NOT WHAT IS EXPECTED.

Without exclaiming overly attached statements like –

YOU PROMISED ME!

Happily, before the am shift ends, we were able to cheer a little bit by online solutions like www.shakeyspizza.ph where I could send pizza’s to my workmates around the country.

(Just as a background, I have people working with me in Luzon, Visayas and Mindanao.) [Minor exception to the sole person working in North Cotabato, where  electricity supply is not even reliable, Pizza parlors that offer online buying by a third person may seem out of the question. So, I just had to think of another better way to cheer him up)

Before the day ends, I am happy to tell that I have moved an inch up towards finishing this ridiculous synching method I have automated. Testing is dragging so a crochet hook is within arm’s reach. I am finishing the crocheted lace shorts as promised, to finally be able to provide a decent documentation on how I hacked AngieHeart’s crocheted lace shorts.

WIP – AngieHeart’s Crocheted Lace Shorts